For the obvious reasons, I'm not going to divulge too much about the new job. Let's just say that I started this new job about 4 weeks ago and I right away recognized what this whole experience has meant to me. And I think that's all I've been after this whole time: Taking something positive from the outsourced experience. Here's what I've learned:
- I really enjoy working. But, work will never again be the number 1 thing in my life.
- Distance. As in keep some between me and my coworkers.
- I know I can lose this job and be OK. I didn't know that before. I thought my whole existence would die with the job.
- Healing. I can finally begin to let go and go on. And mean it.
- Perspective. I can clearly see the big picture. I can look around and know that I am so much better off than I was 2 years ago.
- I'm good at what I do. I lost sight of that for awhile, but now that I'm back in my element, I know that I bring something valuable to the table.
- Karma? Yes, I still believe in it.
- Work should be fun. When you stop enjoying what you do, it's time to find something else to do.
- It doesn't always pay to be a superhero rock star at work. Let me clarify: I will always work hard, as that work ethic is embedded in my soul, it's who I am and I can't change who I am, nor do I want to. But, I will never forget that doing the impossible only made it possible for me to be taken advantage of. And that's on me, as I firmly believe you can't be taken advantage of unless you allow it to happen. Which I did.
I'm getting back to regular blogging, so stay tuned. I feel incredibly lucky and thankful at the moment, let's hope this feeling stays with me for awhile. And finally, I have recently found unexplainable inspiration in this quote from the final episode of Oprah:
"You need to find what sparks the light in you, so you, in your own way, can illuminate the world."
Read it again. Sleep on it. Think about it. And get to work finding that light, as that's what I'm doing over here.
Peace. Out.
